LGBTQ 30 Day Challenge: Day 30

24 07 2011

Day 30: Anything LGBT you’d like to end this on?

So many thoughts are running through my head. I’ve come so far from where I was 10 years ago. I couldn’t even say “I’m gay” in my head at that age. All that I ever remember thinking about was how/when to end everything if thoughts of sexuality even entered my mind. I prayed EVERY DAY for God to make me “normal.” Needless to say, it didn’t work. But I came through it. I’m ok.

Don’t get me wrong, I still have a long way to go. I struggle with issues of masculinity, identity, dating, self-confidence, but I’m leaps and bounds ahead of even 3 years ago. Life is a struggle every day, but I’ll make it. I’ll figure it out.

This 30 day challenge has inspired me to record an “It Gets Better” video. It’s something I’ve been thinking about for a while, but now it’s something I feel like I need to do. Look for it to be coming soon.


LGBTQ 30 Day Challenge: Day 29

23 07 2011


Umm…YAY FOR NOT BEING DEAD!!! That’s what I’ve got. I usually only yell when I’m angry and I try not to be angry to awful often. 🙂 But I think this sums up how I feel right now.

LGBTQ 30 Day Challenge: Day 26

12 07 2011

Day 26: Your favorite gay joke? (We all need to laugh at ourselves)

There was this man who walked into a bar and says to the bartender 10 shots of whiskey.

The bartender asks, “What’s the matter?”

The man says, “I found out my brother is gay and marrying my best friend.”

The next day the same man comes in and orders 12 shots of whiskey.

The bartenders asks, “What’s wrong this time?”

The man says, “I found out that my son is gay.”

The next day the same man comes in the bar and orders 15 shots of whiskey.

Then the bartender asks, “Doesn’t anyone in your family like women?”

The man looks up and says, “Apparently my wife does.”

LGBTQ 30 Day Challenge: Day 25

11 07 2011

Day 25: The LGBT slur you hate the most?

“Fag.” Unquestionably. I can’t STAND that word. It irks me to no end when I hear it. I heard it used so derogatorily as a kid so often, that it literally makes my skin crawl. I tried at one point to “take it back” and use it, but I just couldn’t do it for long. It’s just so hurtful to me for some reason. It definitely doesn’t bother me like it did when I was a kid, but I still just don’t like it.

LGBTQ 30 Day Challenge: Day 23

8 07 2011

Day 23: An LGBT image that makes you cry or makes you angry?

I don’t really think this needs much explanation.  It just makes me so sad to see that the anger and hatred I had hoped would die with my grandparents’ generation is still alive and well in America.

LGBTQ 30 Day Challenge: Day 22

6 07 2011

Day 22: An LGBT image that makes you smile.


I can’t even begin to describe how much I want to be a dad. 

LGBTQ 30 Day Challenge: Day 17

27 06 2011

Day 17:Your first experience with an LGBT organization or event (Day of Silence, Pride, etc.)?

My first experience with n LGBT organization was at a Pride festival…and it was an accident. I go to the University of Tennessee in Knoxville, TN and my best friend and I, along with our lesbian partner in crime, decided to go downtown to Market Square and get some lunch. We don’t live far from there, but we drove, parked, and headed to one of our favorite spots, Tomato Head. As we approach, we start seeing tons of people. Tons of gay people. I was out at this point, but still not 100% comfortable with it. But as we got closer, I suddenly felt ok. Here were tons of men holding hands with men. And women with their arms draped around other women. And all in East Tennessee, not exactly what you’d think of as a hotbed for the homos.

But here we were, surrounded by happy, healthy, well-adjusted gay people. It was a really positive experience for me. There were other people there who had also stumbled unwittingly on Knoxville Pridefest. The one I remember most was a frat-looking boy and a girl. They were on a date for sure, but whether or not they were in a relationship, I couldn’t say. Either way, the girl was gushing about how cute it was that all the gay guys were there, holding hands and “being themselves.” Her beau kept nodding and trying to agree, but it was all over his face that he was uncomfortable. This said, many students at UT are from very small towns in Tennessee and have very little, if any, experience with openly gay people, especially in this magnitude. I can’t say I was 100% comfortable, so I can only imagine what he was feeling. He was polite and friendly enough and I can only hope he was caught off guard and was trying to soak it all in.

The whole experience was great and I went back, intentionally this time, the following year and thoroughly enjoyed myself. Unfortunately, I have to miss Knoxville Pride this year, and I already missed Nashville’s, but Memphis’ is in October and I’ll likely drive home for it. I’ve never been to that one and it should prove a very interesting experience.